Memory Lane

How we remember shapes who we become.

Photo Album by Laura Fuhrman via Unsplash

I believe there’s a link between our memories and our discipleship.

God tells us to remember. This is important because we all know what happens to God’s people when they forget— losing the way, slavery, exile, etc… We all know what happens to us when we forget—pretty much the same, am I right?! But as I meditate on this, I think God is asking us to do more than simply scroll through the photo albums of our memory.

“Remember the wonderful things He has done,
    His miracles and the wise decisions He has made…”

— Psalm 105:5 (VOICE)

I feel like Holy Spirit is emphasizing the “…He has done” phrase. Recounting what happened isn’t what God is asking of us. He’s asking to remember what he has done. This subtly shifts the perspective, doesn’t it? If I simply just rehearse the sequence of events, I’ll only remember what happened. But if I remember what He has done, I get a new perspective on my own history. I can look back and see His actions in my story. I can see His hand at work. I can recall Holy Spirit’s comfort in even through the most difficult times. 

The Fruit of Memory: Gratitude and Faith

Remembering what He has done produces fruit: thankfulness and faith. First, when I recall how God showed up, I can’t help but feel grateful. And I believe that gratitude is the chemotherapy for the cancer of my entitlement. God knows I need to be grateful in order to be healthy. So he instructs me to remember. Second, when I see what God has already done in my life, it gives me faith for what I am facing now. There’s a reason that the “Do it again” song is so popular and so anointed. Looking back at the actions of God in my past give me faith for the actions of God in my present, and hope for the future. Even in a pandemic. 

Doorknob Decisions

Not Long Ago, I Was Walking Down the Hallway of a Fancy Hotel.

Do Not Disturb by Visuals via Unsplash

I was feeling pretty good about myself and how life was treating me.

As I passed each door, I noticed the signs hanging from some of the doorknobs. Some displayed “Maid Service Please.” Other door signs said, “Do Not Disturb.”

Later in the day, God spoke to me. He said,  “On a regular basis, when you want me to clean up your mess, you hang the 'Maid Service' sign on the door of your heart. This is an entitlement because you have no intention of cleaning up yourself. You expect my service immediately and without question.” I was shocked. I started to argue. But before I could get defensive, I heard Him say, “You just as quickly flip the sign over to “Do Not Disturb”, as if you don’t want me to bother you. It makes me very sad when you do this to me.”

I couldn’t speak. His words penetrated my heart and challenged me to take a good long look at my attitude towards God and the entitlements I walked in. 

After I deeply repented, I started to evaluate how I interacted with others in regards to this sign. Did I really, expect others to “Do Not Disturb” me? Did I really want others to pick up after my messes? Am I really entitled? The answer sadly was a resounding, yes!

My heart still feels the weight of that sin, even as I’m reminded of that day, from time to time. I have made a conscious effort to not swivel this sign towards God and others who attempt to connect with me. Who do I think I am? Where did such arrogance and pride waltz into my heart? The answer is, daily, I make a choice to either walk in pride or in humility. I either choose to serve others or be served. I’m still a work in progress and thankfully, God isn’t finished with me yet, and thankfully, my family hasn’t disowned me. But I’m regularly aware that I have a doorknob on my heart waiting for a sign to hang on it. I get to choose to not hang entitlement, on the doorknob of my heart. Today, I’m going to hang a sign that says, “Welcome, how can I serve you?”

A Guide Is Better Than a Compass

My Dear Friend John Skelly Responded to Last Fridays Post with An Even Better Concept

Photo by Derek Thomson via Unsplash

John wrote, “Just was inspired by your blog. love your take on how God is leading you and am challenged to let God lead me in the same ways. I am glad I have a Guide... it's even better than a compass...”

I was blown away. John has regularly given such clear pictures of the character of God, both in his life and also in his words. I wrote John back and asked him for more. He’s graciously allowing me to post his thoughts here:

I am pondering direction. I am of a generation that learned to fold maps correctly. Rand McNally was a friend on all trips. Still for all the study of routes and alternatives, the memorization of all the United States capitols, I remain directionally challenged. The compass held great promise. The problem is that I am convinced that whatever direction I am facing is north. That is challenging. And that is why if my wife and I ever participate on The Amazing Race she will handle the maps, I will accept the directions.

I think that is why I despise GPS too. It is pushy. It barks directions at me. It demands that I do what it tells me to do. My wife on the other hand is much gentler and allows me a U turn or two.

No compass? No GPS? So how do I get to where I am going? I need a guide.I prefer someone who has been there before and knows the way.

Jesus had a direction discussion with his friends in John 14. They were worried about direction too. Apparently, they didn’t know where they were headed. Thomas just blurted out, “How can we know the way?” Jesus tells them, “I am the way. The Truth, and the Life”( John 14:6)

Jesus doesn’t give maps or bark out instructions. He gives us Himself. Jesus is our guide. He is the Way. We can trust and follow him.

When my path is obscured, no compass, map or GPS will get me to where I am going.

It reminds me of the poem: The Gate of the Year: It resonates with me regarding direction and the unknown:

And I said to the man who stood at the gate of the year:
“

Give me a light that I may tread safely into the unknown.”


And he replied:


“Go out into the darkness and put your hand into the Hand of God.


That shall be to you better than light and safer than a known way.”

The hand of God. Better than a compass. Better than a GPS.

Zooooooom!

We’re meeting as a staff on Zoom these days and my screen looks like this

Thank goodness there’s a “Stop Video” button because the combination of about a liter of coffee and about three and a half hours of zoom meetings is wreaking havoc on my bladder.

A few weeks ago this was surreal, now it’s starting to feel like the new normal. (Does that make Zoom the new black?) Of course, the larger meetings feel like I’m watching some weird version of the Brady Bunch. But I’m starting to get into the smaller ones. It is amazing to interact and even do some work. I’ve got weekly staff meetings, two weekly regional meetings, and a meeting that I’m administrating. On top of that we’re Zoom-ing with our small group on Sunday nights. Even though it’s choppy and stilted, and even though we tend to talk over each other accidentally, it is a measure of connection, and I’m grateful for it.

Having said that, yesterday I saw a friend! We talked for twenty minutes from a proper social distance (well it was more like 15 feet, so at least 2 times proper social distance). It was startlingly refreshing to have a real, live, face-to-face interaction. (Or should I say, mask-to-mask?!). There was no lag. The visuals didn’t get choppy, and the audio didn’t get garbled. It was beyond high definition and I think there’s something about proximity that makes a difference. Maybe it’s spiritual. Maybe it’s something having to do with all the nonverbal communication that’s happening, I don’t know. But with means something to me.

And this makes me grateful for those I am able to be with right now.

How a Pattern in Genesis Shows Up in My Life

There’s a pattern that’s repeated in the first chapters of Genesis, and I’m seeing that this same pattern still plays out in my life.

Rainbow Drawing by Alex Jackman via Unsplash

I believe God chose to tell us three stories to reveal the pattern to us.

The pattern goes like this:

1. God blesses

2. Humanity messes up

3. God explains the consequences

4. God gives hope for the future

The three stories that show this repeating pattern are the Fall of Humanity found in Genesis 3, The Flood found in Genesis 6, and the Tower of Babel found in Genesis 11. I’m not going to break out how the pattern plays out in each story in this post. (But maybe I will in a future one?) Instead, I want to show you how this pattern plays out in my life.

God Blesses

I could (and maybe should) go on and on about the countless blessings God has given me. Right now, I’m very aware of the blessings of good health, a home to shelter in, and a follow-me-invitation to participate with Him in His purposes on the earth.

This Human Messes Up

I could (but I will not on this blog) go on and on about the countless ways in which I mess up. But I will share this. I keep trying to earn my place with him. This less-than-productive month at home without my normal traveling and teaching routine has forced me to consider what value I add to the world.

God Explains Consequences

This attitude of earning my place has created a barrier between me and God. It suggests that what Christ did on Good Friday was not quite enough to justify me. Instead of relying on the cross, I’ve been thinking that it’s what I do for God that makes me worthy. He’s looking to be with me while I’ve been trying to work for Him.

God Gives Hope for the Future

This pandemic has forced me to relearn the rhythms of an undeserved grace. I believe he’s using this season to recalibrate my compass and point me towards the true north of rich relationship with him. All those rainbows in the windows and on the sidewalks are a promise for me that He is with me, available to me, and that one day we will be face-to-face forever.

“Are you tired? Worn out? Burned out on religion? Come to me. Get away with me and you’ll recover your life. I’ll show you how to take a real rest. Walk with me and work with me—watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. I won’t lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you. Keep company with me and you’ll learn to live freely and lightly.”

— Jesus (Matthew 11:28-30) in The Message

Reading, Listening, Watching

That title might sound like I’m doing something spiritual, but I mean it more literally, ha!

Here’s What I’m Reading Right Now

A Million Miles in a Thousand Years by Donald Miller

I picked this up a million years ago when it first came out because my friend Philter recommended it. I didn’t get past the first chapter. I think it was because I immediately saw that Miller is a million times better than me when it comes to writing. I found it again the other day and decided to try again. It is kind of hard to read a book about living a better story while I feel stuck on the couch eating cookie dough. But dang, that writing tho…

Multiply by Francis Chan

I’m reading this with my friend Sirvard in England. We read a couple chapters and then we discuss them via video chat. Francis Chan is amazing. Not just a great writer, but he’s somehow managed to make discipleship possible by following along in his book. Last week we got into the small subjects of Creation and the Fall of humanity. This week will be about Abraham and the Exodus. The discussions have been awesome.

Here’s What I’m Listening to Right Now

Peace by Bethel Music

This is wonderfully chill. Several songs are familiar, but arranged and performed in a way to bring a measure of calm to all this anxiousness. I’ve found myself tuning out the news and letting the amazing musicians and singers of Bethel wash over me. Peace indeed.

John Prine Essentials

I read that John Prine passed last week– grace and peace to his family and friends. I knew I knew his name, but I didn’t know his music. And so I called up an Essentials playlist on one of my walks this week. Which led to some repeat playing and some poking around in his catalog. Witty, folksy, and the kind of funny that can poke at sadness.

Here’s What I’m Watching Right Now

War of the Worlds for Free on Epix

This is a fun retelling of the classic story. I thought they were going to try to complete it in 8 episodes, but nope… they’re making seasons. This time the story is set in Europe, so a lot of it is in French with subtitles, swoon. Lots of tension, lots of jump scares (annoying), but dog robots that look like those ones from Boston Dynamics, only militarized.

The Banker on Apple TV+

This is a flat out good movie. I guess there’s some controversy around it… but not for the content. Great performances. Great writing. Well done.

Distancing Socially

Last night we met up with friends on FaceTime and it was almost normal

Photo: Chang Duong via Unsplash

I didn’t think to take a pic of our friends on the screen of the iPad that was propped up on the coffee table in front of us. So here’s a stock pic of friends, haha!

We met up in the early evening. Our family had just finished our stir-fry supper. Theirs was still slow roasting on the grill. We shared drinks and stories. We laughed and we talked about what we’re doing to stay sane. Both of our families have an adult daughter at home. The two of them bonded over how “horrible” it is to be stuck with their parents. We caught up on what was going on with the kids that are sheltering elsewhere. We laughed at each others jokes. We shared fears, and I think by doing so, made them a little more bearable. It wasn’t even an hour, but it meant so much to me to just be as together as we could be.

“Be good friends who love deeply…”

— Romans 12:10 (The Message)